25 / 12

Didn't have party last night, but this morning I went to Bondi Beach with Amy. Seems something big was gonna happen in Bondi, so crowded on the beach ! And in the building Bondi Pavilion the techno music was playing so loud in the daytime. I saw many beautiful people laying on the beach, jumping forth and back in the water, or surfing on the waves ... some blondes even took off the top bikini, which was so wild. I met Patti in Bondi. We were like good friends who haven't seen each other long time, even we hang out only few days in the beginning of May. At night, I had dinner at home with her and her friends, Megumi, Dustin and Katie. They were all nice and funny people with whom I haven't felt so relax since I came to Sydney. We went to Opera House after dinner to see the night view, and bumped into Lawrence, Takeshi and their friends there.

24 / 12

Christmas Eve tonight. I walked in the city the whole afternoon. There were so much discount at every shop in the city. I bought a skirt, only AUD6.95. I was looking for a dress, but after seeing all kinds of them, I gave up. I didn't know what made me so want a dress. I wasn't even that into going to night club tonight. Everyone on the street wore a santa claus red hat and even put on the santa outfit. I heard Christmas songs everywhere, except for the Apple i Store, which was playing Beetles' classic songs during my stay there. So warm.
Me, Amy and Lawrence, we went Darling Harbour to see so far the biggest fireworks. It was really huge and magnificent, especially we sat very close to the exploration position, it was just amazing. After fireworks, we went to St. Marry, meet some friends, then we home.
I didn't go to night club with Jessica. I was afraid of the lost and loneliness after dancing all night, I guess. I didn't wanna be alone tonight, but after all, I found myself couldn't really belong to anywhere. I'd better go sleep and leave the night behind.

23 / 12

It was cloudy this morning, we passed beach. Got up early, then I tried to find myself something to do. In the end I went check Glebe and Newtown. Walked towards to the western side of Sydney. The people was getting varied and there were more and more exotic restaurants. It wasn't too bad on the way to Glebe, but the strange weather, cloudy and sunny, made me depressed. I didn't go to Newtown in the end. Fortunately, I found a tasty tea shop on Broadway Rd., HAPPYLEMON. I tried milk tea with bubble and puff cream,  the texture was a bit gross but still tasted fantastic. It was the best bubble tea I've tried in Sydney. Good drink always made me happy.

22 / 12

Today I met Amy, Maki, Andre and Christine. We went to I-Taiwan restaurant first to have some snacks and bubble tea, then went Dim Tai Fang to have dinner. The food was great, and it should have been nice to meet up these friends ; but I didn't really enjoy it. It was like just eating. Something should have existed between us was not there, or it was me, who wasn't there.

21 / 12

This morning went to Wildlife with Lawrence and Sam. After seeing Cairns Tropical Zoo and Australia Zoo, this indoor zoo couldn't interest me anymore. But the ad. on the wall saying "the largest crocodile in the world" still caught my attention. The first display was a serial of butterflies. They also have very precious Ulysses. Its bright blue and huge swallow wings were really stunning. Then we saw many kinds of snakes, spiders, lizards and Australia animals : koala, kangaroo, wallaby, wombat, cassowary, ext.. In the end, we saw a croc, it was huge and very close, but not that breathtaking as the slogan said. I think I was spoiled by the horror monster movie.

20 / 12

Dramatic day for moving in my new share house.
This morning I left Heart's house and carried everything heading to Jessica (my new owner)'s house. After I arrived at Miramar Building, Jessica told me that she made a mistake that my bed had been rented to another backpacker and she didn't remember until today. But soon she arranged another bed for me in a 4 shared room, which was very crowded, no privacy at all, but I couldn't do anything with it. In addition, there were 10 people in this house, gals and guys, suitcase and backpack everywhere. I so felt like in a jell. After I put all my stuff on the bed and in the wardrobe, Jessica, once again told me that my bed was double booked too.

19 / 12

Today still didn't have any plan. After lunch, I went out trying to find a quiet place for reading novel. Luckily, it was very sunny this afternoon. I walked to Circular Quay, sat near a didgeridoo street performer which I think the best in this area. I started reading, but soon the warm sun made me so sleepy. 1 chapitre after, I closed up the book and went check Museum of Contemporary Art. There was a photograph display, which looked very interesting and just well caught my attention. It was Annie Leibovitz's exhibition. Stayed for a while in the souvenir shop, read her albums, then I bought a postcard on which there are John Lennon embracing his wife Ono.

18 / 12

Still felt not hungry at all at midday.
Went to King of Comic without having lunch. I found they have more new manga : Kenshin, Antique Bakery ... such classic representatives in my high school life. I so wanna collect them all for souvenir and for improving my English. It can always get a fresh feeling to read a story translated to another language, and it's fun to imagine how people around the world see the world I've been believing.
Couple of hours later, I went home and continued reading the novel. The chapitre of skinning a soldier. After dinner, I really wanna have some desserts so I went Coles to buy 2 packs of chocolate biscuits. Felt so happy to spoil myself a little bit, but soon I felt regret spending money again.
Chilling out all night in front of computer, reviewing all the movies in my hard disk. Couldn't be more bored and lonely at this moment. I wonder if there is someone who needs my company or who can give me some company.

 

17 / 12

The weather seemed no good when I woke up this morning. We canceled Coogee Beach, instead, I met up with Kohei and Andre - since they bumped into each other somewhere in Sydney - at a 10-dollars Korean buffet restaurant. The food there was so good beyond my expectations, but the best thing was that I could once again sit with these guys and had lunch together in Sydney ! Andre was so funny and talkative as usual, and he has got a new iphone. Kohei looked more colorful but still remained his otaku style. After the buffet, I brought them to Observatory, then Andre needed bubble tea and pancake urgently.

16 / 12

Went to Botanic Garden this morning to join a free tour with Audrey. Then, after having sushi rolls for lunch we went to Observatory. It started raining at noon. When we arrived at Observatory, the rain became heavier, so we were just stuck there for quite long time. I kinda enjoyed the rainy day. Staying inside and looking at the pouring rain outside the window gave me a peaceful and warm feeling.

15 / 12

I found a new place to stay on Gum tree. I think I was very lucky, coz all the ads said they rent at minimum 1 month. The owner of my new place said that too at the beginning. However, after I explain how urgently I need a room, and I can even pay more for the living share, the owner accepted me for staying just 2 weeks. The bed was put in the living room, but she put some kinda curtain to cover it so I would still have some privacy. I still have a wardrobe on the balcony. Seemed lucky enough. Basically, it was similar to the place I stayed in Heart's house, but cheaper. I'm so ready to move in on next Monday.

14 / 12

Today I went to Bondi Beach with Audrey. It was sad to know that Audrey was gonna leave Sydney this Saturday morning, even we all understand after all we have to leave, can't be staying here forever.

13 / 12

Today took a long walk to North Shore.

12 / 12

It was difficult for me to quit smoking. Was eager to light up a cigarette at the moment of feeling lonely, or being alone. I couldn't help wonder, if it's easy for smoker to feel lonely ? and that's why they wanna smoke ?

11 / 12

Today around 12, I got a phone call from a cafe for interview and tryout.

10 / 12

My saving is decreasing, and I haven't got any job yet. Few days ago I found there were only 4 dollars in my wallet, then I decided not to withdraw cash until next week. This was definitely a big challenge for me.

09 / 12

No plan today. Got up very late. Had a brunch then went library to used internet. I found there were some interesting exhibitions on the 2nd floor. As I didn't have special plan and need to kill some time, I went check them out. The expo were free, and I really enjoyed the displays of Kahili Gibran. He was an artist, writer, both of his artworks were full of emotion. I especially like his face series, very impressed. There was another display about some photographs of beach, bush and bettler, but the date for the display was a mistake, I have to wait until next year in January.
I spent the whole night on internet, looking for jobs, then got an interview tomorrow at Rose Bay. I had no idea where the Rose Bay was. According to the map, it looked very far from the city. Still thinking about going or not.

08 / 12

Got an interview at Darling hurst this morning.
I was surprised  when I got there coz the restaurant hasn't opened yet : they were still doing the decoration inside, but the neighborhood looked stylish and tranquil. The owners are Ben and Eva, very nice Australian people, they were really serious about me and my resume. This was the first time someone had a real interview with me since I left Kuranda. They asked me couple of questions, and seemed satisfied with my experiences and staying time in Sydney (3 months, as I told them). I wasn't sure if they like me, but I really hope they can call me back on Friday. I think I'll stay in Sydney 3 months for sure if I get this job.
Tonight, had a drink with Audrey, Lawrence, Sho and Yoshi at my place. Really enjoyed it. But my owner Heart wasn't happy about this kinda gathering in his house.

07 / 12

I found that so far I went out everyday since I arrived in Sydney. Besides, I hang out with Audrey every day even we only have met once in Fraser Island, what struck me the most was that we, the 2 different cultures people, could get along so well.

06 / 12

This morning I went to Manly Beach with Audrey and her friend Clarisse. Something unbelievable happened while we were waiting for the ferry at Circular Quay : I saw my professor 楊淑娟 in TKU running in front of me ! She was in Australia and she was going to Manly too !! She was also very surprised that we bumped into each other in Australia, but we didn't have time to talk as she needed to catch the upcoming ferry. Then, I saw her waving hands to me before she got on the ferry.

05 / 12

I'm very confused about  recent life, at the age of 25, should have decided the direction of life. Just like the most of my friends, they have stable job, have got married, have a saving ... but I have none of them. David told me there's no need to compare with others, the most important is now how you live, it's always right choice if you're happy at this moment. It doesn't matter how old you are, some people they can't find the direction even they're 40 years old.

04 / 12

Today I was planning to go to beach with Audrey, but it was raining when I woke up in the morning, so we canceled it. I made 2 sandwiches for my brunch, chilled out a bit in my room and then went join free English class in church at 2 o'clock in the afternoon.

03 / 12

It was sunny today.

I was planning to go to Art Gallery of NSW, but when I walked along the Opera House, suddenly I changed my mind to walk the Harbor Bridge. Before getting on the bridge, I passed by the Rocks. This area was definitely my new favourite ! The buildings here looked classic, and they reminded me of the small towns in Czech. Then I found there was a market. The vendors were selling the food and products from different cultures : Chinese, Japan, Germany, etc..

The bridge was magnificent. Some people even paid lots of money to climb it. On the bridge, I saw different aspects of Opera House, and couldn't stop taking pictures. The strange thing was, the Opera House was not that stunning after taking a closer look. It seemed being roofed in beige tiles. However, when I looked at it from far away, the roof was reflecting the sunshine, and it became amazing with its pearl white color !

Tonight I went to Sydney Tower after dinner. The night view was very similar to the one I've seen from the top of Tower 101, but it was still a good place to blank myself out.

02 / 12

Today, suddenly I realized this is the last month in 2010.

Went to Aquarium with Lawrence and Sam. I bought the unlimited adventure pass, which costs me 60 AUD, but it's really a good deal. The aquarium was quite amazing : all kinds of fish and sharks, we even saw the dugong, which was too ugly to imagine why some sailors thought it was mermaid.

After Aquarium, Lawrence and Sam cooked Oyako dan for lunch. I liked staying at their small and cozy place, eating and drinking. This is one of the best part of overseas life.

I would like to go to Sydney Tower even I was tired. I think I was kinda excited for the unlimited pass !

01 / 12

Today, the first day of December.

Au-revoir, Cairns !

Tonight is my last day working at night market, and also my last working day in Cairns.

行前準備

離職後一個月的行前準備比想像中還要匆忙
包括其中有一兩個星期的時間都忙著和朋友見面
包括一開始無頭蒼蠅般的亂買東西，到上背包客棧爬文看人家準備些什麼，如何做取捨
該買的幾乎都買齊後，接著試裝了三次想把所有的東西擠進18吋登機箱，最後還是放棄，換成了24吋
總之光是整理行李就佔據了大部份心力

履歷的準備，我找到了畢業後擬的電子檔，稍作修改後請朋友幫忙看了一下
打工的履歷將我至今的人生經歷做了最簡短的紀錄
再次看到TOEIC以及DELF的低分還是感到很羞愧，而我將要厚著臉皮拿著這些去跟每個店家說"My English/French is fluency."
對於幾乎忘光了的德文跟捷克文，則視惡補成果看是否從履歷上刪除

今天重新將行李打包：20kg的托運行李+10kg的隨身行李，
原本的預留空間都被塞滿，但我想不出還有什麼東西可以被拿出來
想到要離開一年就無法狠心丟掉一些東西

我又要出去了，但這次不是法國

月初終於提了辭呈，一轉眼手上的東西通通交接出去了
在亞克翔捷待了將近三年，是我由大學畢業新鮮人蛻變為社會人士的一個過程
和書上教的完全不一樣。我在大四修的法文書信寫作，歸零，然後在上班後從頭開始(徐鵬飛一定很難過)
兩年多來在我手上建立起來的小小王國，一個業務助理偶爾做的能感到驕傲的生產流程，
竟然能在兩天內轉到別人手上，想想有些感傷

-為什麼想離職? 其實真正原因我自己也不清楚

大概不想一直做業務助理下去
大概是熟悉的同事一個個離職了
大概是每天坐在電腦前超過12個小時讓我覺得很累
大概是這兩年多一晃眼過去，最後竟然感到比大學畢業前還要茫然
....到澳州打工旅遊這個解釋真是容易多了

朋友說去了一趟深山裡的部落收穫很多
接著想到自己還未造訪台灣的許多角落就又要跑出去，就有點愧疚
我很羨慕她及其他朋友: 有自己的目標，做自己喜歡的事，研究喜歡的東西...
而我只想到把自己丟到一個陌生的地方，一年後，希望很理想化地改變目前所處的窘境
澳洲行並不是我身為年輕人的夢想，反而像是我亦然決然出走的避風港
值得欣慰的是，隨著預定出發時間的逼近還能像學生時代般感到不安、興奮與期待，
讓我覺得自己還能保有一些熱情

我在舞台上把Miss J's tips通通忘光了

兩個月前在同事的介紹下接了我生平第一個走秀的機會
這是實踐大學為學生辦的一個比賽, 分成創意組跟成衣組, 我們的設計師則是參加成衣組
由於自己從來沒有走過台步, 不要說台步了, 連高跟鞋都沒有好好穿過幾次
所以一開始很緊張地跟設計師擺明了自己真是業餘的可以
之後他說只要會走路就可以了, 讓我放心不少

早上11點多到達實踐大學
校園裡好多奇裝異服的人走來走去, 還看到一個穿緊身皮褲的男生
原來比賽從很早就開始了
到了指定的教室, 我們開始試衣服, 化妝, 弄頭髮...
設計師的創作是從家居服做變化的概念
我被分配到的是一件身紫色的浴袍, 和一件好看的深灰色燈籠打折褲
由於要強調居家的輕鬆頹廢感, 臉被畫的很白, 兩頰打上陰影, 眼睛也只上眼線
我的頭髮整個被梳爆, 可怕的是留海還被往後梳
我其實是一個不能沒有留海的人啊~~但是為了忠於設計師的理念, 我只好默默忍受了
一開始我穿在浴袍裡的背心, 也在設計師的慫恿下最後脫掉了, 露出我的bra
反正為了支持他的設計, 露些微薄的乳溝也是OK的
畢竟我的留海都被梳起來了...orz

一共四女兩男的model, 換上衣服後在教室走來走去, 氣勢十分凌人
老實說, 今天是我生平感到最渺小的一次
每個女生都比我高, 最高的有180cm ! 穿上高跟鞋直逼200cm !!
站在他們之中, 我只管抬頭挺胸, 不會有人仰頭看我, 也不會有人想把我的腿打斷
忽然有個跟這些女生一起穿高跟鞋出去逛街的想法...

出場前, 發生了一段小插曲,原來我們錯過了出場時間
設計師緊張地大哭起來, 他的朋友們也不停地跟學校交涉
我們幾個有點傻住, 站在旁邊無能為力
我們只是今天來到這裡, 為這幾分鐘的出場準備
然而設計師卻花了好幾個月構思他的衣服, 好幾個晚上不睡覺耗在裁縫機上工作
光想到這一切可能成為泡影, 我也不禁為他難過起來
好在最後學校答應讓我們比賽, 把我們排在最後一組, 這才鬆了一口氣

隨著前面隊伍一組一組結束, 我們出場的時刻慢慢逼近
我感到自己的心跳越來越大聲
等到我被推出去的時候, 我腦中一片空白
只記得眼睛要緊盯一個評審(中間的評審被我的盯的眼神很不自在的飄開了)
忘了要先等前面那一位走到評審前面再開始走
忘了定點後掃視評審一輪
忘了走路要走一直線 眼神要fierce
忘了要做像Nayima甩肩膀的動作
靠我通通忘了, 忽然覺得ANTM第一到十一季通通白看了
走回後台才清醒過來, 想起自己方才的笨拙
剛剛評審似乎盯著我看了好一會才低下頭寫了些什麼
拜託~不要給我亂寫啊

今天真的是一次很難得的經驗,
體會到model出場的那一刻有多麼可怕, 絶對不只是只顧著不要跌倒這麼簡單

new age, new adventure

又是新的一年
25歲的生日就在與朋友吃吃喝喝，以及南投的日月潭旅行中度過了
真的過了那一刻，發現其實什麼也沒有改變
回顧我的24歲，頭髮剪短了，參加了第一場婚禮，跑了幾場演唱會，騎腳踏車到處玩
以及把好神車衣穿到萬里長城上...
總覺得自己做了好多事，但也覺得這些以前很期待的事情實現的很容易
唯一不容易的，沒有改變的，仍然是我無法好好把握的你
我想我ㄧ輩子都會很後悔
我的25歲絕對不會再錯過了

十年之後，那張銷售最差的專輯成了我的最愛

最近又把嗆辣紅椒(Red Hot Chilli Peppers)的By the way專輯拿出來聽
算起來，By the way是高二時第一次聽到嗆辣的歌，也是我首次深入接觸搖滾樂的一張CD
還記得剛買專輯的第一天，三件樂器一個主唱讓我好不習慣，
因為這不像戴倫海斯或是羅南那樣背景用合聲填的滿滿，當下覺得很單調
磨合期過後，我漸漸愛上這種對我來說嶄新的風格，主唱那印地安人的臉龐及全身奇怪的刺青更讓我瘋狂
我想那時候應該是我成為一個嘻皮的關鍵
之後一張一張地去買By the way之前的專輯，並且發現他們越年輕越怪
Californication是賣最好的一張，Blood Suger Sex Magik是評價最好的一張
剛買BSSM的時候，我完全聽不下去
這是一張主唱部分唱的沒有什麼旋律的專輯，太怪了！怪的我無法接受，甚至想轉手賣給同學，
不過當然是賣不出去，只好強迫自己聽
直到後來漸漸發現那些詭異旋律的背後編曲竟然那嚜豐富，甚至注意到Bass是這專輯中最瘋狂的東西
最後因為太崇拜Bass手Flea去學Bass

我想那之後的幾年，我真的很沉迷slap表現的funky groove，快節奏的slap其實有點像速金帶來的快感
有一陣子放的CD，朋友還以為我在聽什麼Bass演奏曲...

By the way應該是嗆辣做過最不funky的作品，在美國的排行普普，在英國卻很受歡迎
吉他手John的重新歸隊: John曾自己發行過一些EP，風格較為柔軟，
再加上主唱Anthony稱讚他那陰柔的嗓音將會是RHCP的第五件樂器，能為樂團帶來新的面貌
也或許是團員個個進入不惑之年(除了John)，歷練多了，心境也成熟了，在技巧之後放入了更多細膩的情緒
相隔十年在聽這張CD，產生了很多不同以往的感覺，發現有一天嗆辣最吸引我的是誠懇、乾淨的旋律及聲線
在我現在看來，嗆辣當時風格的轉變非常的成功，也非常適合進入人生另一個階段的他們
最新專輯Stadium Arcadium中，很明顯聽出嗆辣想重拾放客帝王的野心，還特地回BSSM的錄音室錄製
技巧沒話講，宣傳也夠誇張...但就是沒有以前那種囂張的氣焰
比起來，By the way裡酥軟的情感實在太成功！

書展追星記

今年會去書展還蠻意外的
總共去了1/30(六), 31(日)兩天；去的前一天，還跟朋友半推半就，
大概數年前到動漫館人擠人的惡夢還在，一直覺得去書展就是找啊咱的，還不如到誠品圖個清靜
星期六一進去，人沒有想像中多，先是找好地圖跟節目單隨便走馬看花逛了一下
接著便前往紅沙龍看朋友推崇的作家兼導演Philippe Claudel

我都不知道書展什麼時候多了沙龍這種好地方
剛好今年的主題國是法國，時間一到，大家集合到沙龍(分紅、黃、藍)與作家座談，
好有貴族聚會的氣氛

我對Philippe很不熟，有印象他出的那本"灰色的靈魂(L'arme grise)"，但是從沒讀過
連朋友口中他導演的"我一直深愛著你"電影，我也沒看過...
好吧，其實我坐在那邊只是在訓練我的法文聽力，並且觀察他本人與照片有何不同
聽起來他的幾部小說都是跟大戰有關，新書"波戴克報告(Le rapport de Bordeck)"似乎很有趣
而他寫作的方式也令我驚訝: 寫作時不去事先安排架構，完全跟著想法走，等到寫完再重新審視自己寫了什麼
(真的不禁讓我想到妮翁....)
在回答某一位讀者的問題時，Philippe很不經意地用中文說了"謝謝"，引起一陣小小的騷動
因為這句再普通不過的中文聽到不少女生說: 好可愛! 不知道我們在法國人面前說法文時，他們是不是也覺得我們很可愛XD

第二天下午的同一個地方，來的是萬眾期盼的Muriel Barbery，"刺蝟的優雅(L'elegance du herrison)"的作者
如同每次看到法國女人都會被她們臉上的神采所吸引，看到Muriel更是如此
她本人散發出來的自信、氣質，以及講話時一口優雅穩重的法文，都讓我為她及她的小說更加著迷
訪問她的是金石堂的行銷顧問(?)，是一位舉止、談吐都讓我想到盧廣仲的女性
她問的問題也挺有趣的，比較不同於一般官方的問題
例如: 作者是否有經歷過荷妮與小津先生因為同一本書書的共鳴而墜入情網的經驗? / 作者最近一次經歷如同茶花掉落青苔上的優雅時刻是何時? ...
不過，Muriel真的是一位很有個性的作家，對於涉及私人的問題，或是之後讀者問他私人意見的問題，他一併都委婉拒答，引發了無限的遐想空間
結局女門房荷妮的死，是本書的一大衝擊
作者說，她收到非常多責備的信，甚至是改寫小說結局的副本，以表示抗議
而Muriel則是在動筆的前一分鐘決定了這個結局 (她的寫作方式完全跟Philippe一樣: 跟著想法走!)
當她說在寫這個結局的時候哭了，我忽然也覺得好難過，好像當時我在捷運上哭的情緒又回來了
我們都完全進入了當中，陪著荷妮孤寂、重生，最後消逝....在短暫的生命中體驗動人的時刻

在書展中見到作家本人的感動其實不亞於見到歌手
(我連看到劉軒都能在旁邊因為沒能帶書給他簽名而鬼叫...)
我們都在一本書或一首歌中感受同樣的遭遇，或是釋放最私人的情緒
非常有收穫的兩天，見到許多國內外作家、插畫家...還有大學系上的同學及老師，聽了好多法文...
我甚至不會對自己亂買書感到罪惡感

Cinema of Tomorrow : 兩部電影

下午難得一個人到光點看電影
雖然我不是很常到光點看電影卻很喜歡那裡的氣氛
白色的建築，簡單的宣傳，門口坐滿各式各樣人的露天咖啡(沒有爆米花，沒有可樂，也沒有穿著制服的工讀生....)
光是坐在旁邊看著這些就覺得放鬆下來
近期的<明日的電影>影展已經開始一兩個星期了，
在朋友的推薦下，今天連看了兩部 : 日日夜夜(Night and Day) & 私家課程 (Eleve Libre)

日日夜夜是一部描寫韓國畫家在巴黎生活的故事
電影中有很多細節都讓我會心一笑，包括 : 夏天的晚上將近十點才天黑/在路邊抽菸會有人來借火/露天的咖啡座的桌子都很小/旅館內往外推開的大窗戶跟窗簾....ext.
男主角先是遇到已婚前女友，兩人曖昧了一段；接著，又和韓國女留學生及他的室友發展三角戀，最後把其中一個肚子搞大然後跑回韓國
看起來好像是一部純粹令人羨慕的艷遇史
儘管男主角隱隱散發的大男人主義讓我很不爽，但是片中的女生卻好像很吃這一套
隨著主角的在巴黎種種不順遂的際遇及隨之而來內心的掙扎，法國或是北韓(男主角是南韓人)都不能真正融入其中，我似乎也在問自己相同的問題
我喜歡法國的文化及城市的氣味，但無論我待在那裡多久，慶祝他們的節日、學習他們的語言...我還是覺得自己是外來的
就算玩的好一陣子沒打電話回家，看到家人的照片還是讓我鼻酸
最後還是台灣的人事物才有不可分的歸屬感

私家課程則是在講一個網球少年因為學科被當，為了補考過關請年長友人當家教卻被順便上了一課性教育的故事 (不過最後補考還是有過)
劇中友人對少年提出的問題很令人省思 : 因為父母給了你生命就必須理所當然地愛他們嗎？ / 沒和同性做過你怎嚜知道自己對同性沒興趣？/ 你的答案是社會道德規範教你這樣回答，還是出自本意？...
我很欣賞友人教導少年不論對求學，或是尋求人生的答案上，必須不斷提出疑問
過去的社會無法接受未婚懷孕，同性戀者不敢出櫃....但是現在誰會在意這個？這些所謂"道德淪喪"的人或許還是你我身邊的朋友
我越來越覺得，事情不論兩面或是多面，其實沒有真正的對錯
當社會對過去認為不對的事情放寬了條件，是非對錯沒有明確的界定，能討論的也只剩個人接受度大小