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It was difficult for me to quit smoking. Was eager to light up a cigarette at the moment of feeling lonely, or being alone. I couldn't help wonder, if it's easy for smoker to feel lonely ? and that's why they wanna smoke ?
One friend told me its actually smoking an "atmosphere", we enjoy that atmosphere created by cigarette, instead of its nicotine. Thinking of these cigarette stuff made me struggle : sometimes I wanna gave up and go buy a pack, and smoke whenever I want. But in the end, I still wanna see myself how to resist it. As I always said : I could quit whenever I want.
This afternoon, went to Paddy's Market, bought vegetable and fruits. Amazingly cheap. I think I' ll go there very often afterwards. I restarted reading my English novel "The Wind-up Bird Chronicle." 1 chapitre after, I found the story was getting interesting. I've read it in Mandarin version few years ago. I can't recall some details, but I still remember its main subject : "We can invest enormous time and energy in serious efforts to know another person, but in the end, how close can we come to that person's essence ?"